It never ends in this fucking cycle. They see my strength and they are attracted to it. They feed off it to fight their demons and when they're gone I become the castaway playmate. I'm so tired of trying and getting shit on. I'm in the same shit again and I know how it will end but why won't I just back out before they do? I don't know maybe it's lonelyness or desperation but I'm just sick of it. Patience is a virtue and also a girl who is using me to make her feel good till she finds another. I want to scream. I want to break things fuck I just need a way out!